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09:18 am
[Link] | Been kinda tierd lately and its not due to work but been out playing too often.. Hahahha.. Just got back from a trip to Alaska and i had so much fun for 10days while i was there. In these 10 days, i have not quite seen the night sky in Alaska cuz in the summer time, the sun never really sets as its so close to the north. Therefore, even though we were still up and out at 9pm, i din really feel that tierd. I had taken cruises out and got to see a whale (at least the tail and it surfacing for air), Sea otters (the most adorable thing there!) and porpoises! I also got to see glaciers up close and saw in real time as it breaks away in chunks and falls into the sea. Did some small trails in the national parks to see more glaciers and wild animals like Moose and Dall sheeps. Saw bears too but from a really far out distance so can only make it out as a black speck. Took a flight up to see the mountains up close and did white water rafting! totally exhilirating! I will say in these 10 days i just see endless stretch of the mountains and lakes whever i drove to in Alaska.... an old timer fisherman said to our rafting guide who told us that seeing 10 thousand acres of Alaska is enough to last you a lifetime....
After i returned from Alaska, i just went out over the weekend for kayaking and bird watch.. i was mad enough with my fren to drive down 2 hours afterwards to the shopping outlets. She again bought more bags for her friends! Hahaha.. she should prob set up a catalouge for her friends..Its the only available Kate Spade outlet store and is so damn far! ANyways, if you girls are interested, let me know cuz i might be heading down just before i go home in July. COach outlets are found easily... So now i am planning for my trip to Yellowstone with Eugene tts happening at the end of June.. but before that i am heading to Canada this weekend to see Nigaria Falls. HAhahha.. does tt sound like i be kept very busy.. i hope i dont wear myself out.. Abit aprehensive about going to Canada cuz i be driving like 8 hours between me and my friend. Guess i just have to have my trusty mug of coffee by my side. Will be posting those pictures of Alaska on facebook so check them out!
Yup, I am going to Yellowstone with Eugene... must be thinking so everything is alright with Eugene and I now? Well, i guess sort of? Its much easier to have it this way while we are here in the same place in the same house. Its just too stressful to face him... I mean he seems to have become more giving and accomodating than before but still not very confident of our relationship. Many times, i still dont agree and understand the way he deals with matters and same goes for him towards me... Going with him to Yellowstone is our first trip out on our own and he had been wanting this for quite a while cuz our schedule dont meet. Going to yellowstone is my idea cuz i really really wanted to go see the Beautiful Geysers...
So i am going home to singapore in july .. be arriving on the 19th July and be around for about 10 days. I leave the states on the 15th and be stopping over in Frankfurt for a few days before taking the flight from there to continue home. I am so excitied to go back to singapore and see u girls and the rest.... To eat my usual fav foods to hang out at my usual places... i just spoke to lum on the phone yesterday when i was at home resting. He had quit his job to pursue his own business plan and also he just cant stand working at his job anymore. i had heard him say it for a very long time but i suggest tt he finds another replace,ment before he quits. I told him its so different for each of us after we went seperate ways. We use to be so important in each other lives before but now its like i hardly know him and he hardly knows whats going on in my life. He says thats to be expected and has to happen tt way... but i still play a big role in his life.. I still cant stop feeling sad whenever i think of him.. i feel excited to get to see him but den again dun want to see him either.. Confused.. yet he seems to feel nothing to see me..
Current Location: work
Current Mood:  melancholy
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10:34 am
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Updates
Hi girls.. how has everyone and baby Shayna? So glad that i can still be updated about everyone over the journal. Sorry that i haven been very hardworking on keeping up with my entries.
So how are the wedding preparations for Huijuan and Min min ah? Hehehe u girls must be so excited! I am also excited to see the pictures too!!! Hows Laikien's dating? So busy dating tt i haven seen another entry for quite a while huh.. As for serene, are u still on maternal leave? Hows being a new mother like?? Shayna looks so big and healthy! Has she been a good girl? Hehhehe
As for me, i have been doing abit of travelling in my free time here in US. Becus i work on shifts, i work in 2 weeks pattern. I work mon, tues then thurs, fri sat and sun and the following week i work only weds and thurs. So it rotates like this and i work 12 hours each time. THere are advantages and disadvantages of this work pattern as 12hrs of work can really be tiring but the good of it is tt i get alot of free time on my off days. So far, i have travelled to Boston (1hr away), NY and Washing DC. Some of you girls might have seen the pics on my facebook already. It is Janurary now and its also the coldest month of winter.. might stretch to feb too but should start getting warmer only after march. When i first started seeing the first snow, it was so pretty and even romantic! It was just all white out everywhere and i had my very first white christmas. Then, it became quite bad at times when it becomes a snow storm. What happened on one snow storm was almost a traumatic experience for me! (<--ok maybe not traumatic but sure was frightening) Eugene and our housemate was coming out to fetch me after work and its been snowing the whole day now and snow was up till 9incches high. On their way here to pick me up, they got stuck in snow at a road junction about 500m away. Eugene called me up to walk to him and since i din have a choice i walked out. On my walk out, the wind was just biting into my face, i left just my eyes peeking out but still i couldnt even open my eyes while i walk. Luckily, my colleague saw me walking by the road and picked me up, drove me up to our car that got stuck and we shovel and shovel and shovel and pushed the car out of the snow. From then on, there was another couple more times of shoveling and pushing.. Hahaha.. so no one told me the difficulties of living through winter! hahaaha.. i share a car with a housemate who works on the opposite shift to mine and he has to even send me to work even on my off days. Feel terrible for having to relie on my fren cuz when he could be sleeping at home, he has to wake up at 6.30 am to go with me to work. I have not got my license yet but i have my permit which means i can drive with supervision but lately, i have tried driving to work on my own. Still hasnt feel very confident about it and afraid that i might get stopped over my police lo... staying in this part of US, having your own tranportation is a MUST. Wish i had completed my license way before i came over.. Haaaaaiii... there is absolutely no public transport not a cab or bus in sight!
Its kinda like a shopping heaven here with factory outlets just a 5 mins drive away from my home. (Yes i choose my accomodation strategically!) So i can buy brand names like Coach, Polo Ralphs, Calvin Kleins and more at discounted prices. So far, i have bought quite a few things!! hehehe.. bought two Katespades and one coach for my mum. Oh min! i got a YSL clutch from Eugene as my christmas present!! Its in patent black leather! Hehehe..He bought it online but they seem to have an error on the delivery and he now ends up having two. He could return to them or sell it to someone at a discount. Would you be interested?
Besides talking about my life here in the states, many times, i still miss home, miss my dear friends, miss my family, miss my fav foods and what i shouldnt be feeling too is missing lum. Yes, i am still in touch with teelum and had spoken to him on omany occassions. He has expressed to me that he wants to wait for me. I asked him what is there to wait. Its like i cant erase the feelings yet i cant erase the hurt i still feel...but.... i dont hate him. I know i shouldnt be talking to him shouldnt be in touch with him at all.. i am not sure what i am doing. You might ask if he is still with cyn and he is... However, he tells me she isnt the one for him becuz they are incompatible. I asked then why are you still with her. He said he needs time.. (need time to play around more?) It seems so obvious what is right and good for myself but my heart feels differently?
As for Eugene and i, what goes on between him and I is not affected by teelum. In the last few months we are dating, we have quarrelled on many occassions to the point once every week. I have never been with anyone who is so difficult to be with. He has certain expectations of what a gf should be like towards a bf and he thinks i haven been doing tt and therefore feels neglected. I have to learn how to juggle between being with a bf and still have a relationship with the rest of the group. And many times i would feel so 'yuan wang' becuz i was just being myself and din mean to neglect him but he interprets my actions otherwise and therefore we strain our relationship. I guess its not all his fault too becuz i haven been the most sensitive gf towards him. I have always taken this mentality of being independent at what i do and so he feels we are always in seperate worlds. We have talked about our difference and for the last month, we have been much better. Eugene is not away for work trips and i wont be seeing him for a whole month and then another month when he is back for a week but! he promise to make it back on the 2nd to celebrate BD with me! hehehe..
Current Location: at work
Current Mood:  relaxed
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10:23 am
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some of my pics here
Hi Girls,
here are some of the pictures i posted on multiply.. go have a look lah!
http://dahlia82.multiply.com/photos/album/8/Onguiniquit
http://dahlia82.multiply.com/photos/album/9/White_Mountains
http://dahlia82.multiply.com/photos/album/10/Boston_Trip_
http://dahlia82.multiply.com/photos/album/11/SOme_more_random_pics_of_my_life_here
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09:51 am
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an email
First of all i want to check with i have posted this already cuz i first set it as private so not sure if you girls can see it ... now its under public
Feeling so tierd and sleepy here at work that i cant keep my mind awake and my eyes open. Writing an entry to keep my mind stimulated.
So... i called min recently to complain to her a recent happening that made me so disturbed that i wanted to call someone. As soon as i got time for a break, i called min to tell her i recieved a long email from Cynthia (the girl lum is dating) in my facebook. I was so stunned to see her face that i tried so hard to forget in my inbox. When i read it i din know what to make of it but i knew i was so mad at how this woman dare come and email me now to say she is sorry. In the email, she basically said she was sorry for unknowingly causing a breakup between me and lum. Then went on to say she realised lum had not given up on the relationship at all when he saw me that day when i went out wif eugene. Lum confessed to her that he misses me alot. She also admitted to me that whenever lum mentions about me she felt miserable and then she went on to say she had moved on before deciding to be with lum and asked me if either of us have. She had asked lum several times he wanted to patch with me and he said impossible to her but when she asked him again what if it was possible, he wasnt able to answer and so led her to email me asking me to consider if things were ever possible between him and i despite all these that happened. She highlighted to me that she is not giving him up at this point but merely asking me to think about this cuz if we are still lin love with each other she would graciously give up but she will fight all odds to be with him. She will continue to love him in her way.
So lum found out from her that she emailed me this letter adn sms me to ignore her and he will settle this with her. I had not replied to either on of them. I am so angry at cynthia for coming over to become 'talking' terms with me and i refuse her apology. She shouldnt have emailed me.. this is between him and her so its none of my business.. Whats her purpose of telling me all these and also i dont have to answer or explain myself to anyone not esp her if i want to be back with lum or not. Did she write me this to make me feel sympathetic towards her? to put in a good word of her to lum? to back off from lum? BUT.. after telling my other friends about this they think she is perhaps truely apologetic and they pity that she is also a victim in this and the person who should be blame shouldnt be cyn entirely but lum's too. Unfortunately i am blind so i am more angry at Cyn than i am at lum. However, after speaking to my other friend i realise perhaps i shouldnt let this bother me.
Before this email, lum and i spoke on the phone before and he had mentioned to me he had the urge to fly down to US to see me but cuz i am dating someone he knows he cant do that. He sort of asked me if i would entertain the thought of being back together again..i said to him you cant even convince yourself who u really love and want to be with how could you convince me and my family. He then mentioned taht he would try to convince my mum.. he said to me that he had saved a sum of money and ask me to seriously consider breaking the bond to come back to sinagproe and i said i dont want to break any bond. He realised he wants someone who he can grow old with and live through the harder times like we had before when we were much younger and be able to treat his parents well... i could tell he was really missing the times when we were together.. and i am not denying that i had missed him too at times..
Will continue my update again.. for details of the email can ask min cuz i forwarded her that email.. Hahaha...
Current Location: at work!
Current Mood:  moody
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04:12 pm
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3rd week in New Hampshire
This is the 3rd week since i left home in Singapore. Been staying at my new place for about a week now and my room is looking more like a homely place to stay. I am staying with 3 guys and they all stay on upstairs from me. I took the Masterbedroom! hahha so i can have my own toilet but of course i pay more. So why did i choose to stay with the guys and not the rest of the girls? Well, the thing is everyone wants to stay in the 5 bedroom apartment and no one wants to really stay with the guys and i do kinda like this 4 bedroom house so it works out for me. Eugene stays in this apartment too and some of you will know who i am talking about. The group of people here has already know we are going out so its less awkward for everyone i guess.
Been spending soo much money on just buying a mattress, bedsheets, blankets, table and blah blah blah.. but i like to live comfortably with these things with me so i just buy! shopping here is good too! nice and reasonably priced lah but eating here can be expensive so we normally share a meal between 2-3 ppl. Weather here is into autumn and can be quite chilly at times. Plus i think staying in front of the river can be quite chilly too... Went to see the 'White Mountains' where you get to see the foilage change their colour to red orange yellow.. very pretty!! my house of 4 ppl owns 2 cars now and having a car is a MUST over here cuz you can say there is literally no public transport around here so i am sharing a car with my housemate. Cant wait till i get my license here and finally drive.. in the meantime i trouble my friends. heheh
Everything here is quite alright and i am starting work tomorrow. i prob have to wake up at 5.20am to reach work in time and i will end work at 7pm. but this is a relaxing week for me cuz i only work wed and thurs but the following week i will work alot more days. Thats how shift work operates and i need to get use to it. Besides work, i think i am getting use to getting along and staying with ppl i just met. That itself can be a challenge. The last few weeks i had quarrelled with E and i realise how much i have gotten use to being with Lum that i cant be the same way now that i am with someone else. Sometimes we argue over things that we just cant see eye to eye on and dont seem to understand each other that well but i think after a few times of talking things out things are much better now.
yesterday was lum's birthday and he called me last night in US sounding very teary. i asked him what has happened and a first he din want to tell me but after a while he said he feels very sorry to me and my mum. i asked him why are u sorry.. ppl are only sorry when they feel they had been in the wrong or they regret and he said he does feel that way. I told him you dont have to.. its been done and i dont want to hear u so upset on ur bd. I asked him are u happy with her and he said he was happier with me. But really this shouldnt matter to me anymore lah. he said he was sorry to me cuz he feels responsible for sending me to US. I heard from him that his parents had already met Cyn but when i ask how did it go he din really want to talk about it.
Will try to post some pics here but not sure how do i do it. Why not i send u guys my multiply link where i load up my pics which i take here. I send this link to my family too! will post it on omy next entry!
Current Mood: calm
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10:04 am
[Link] | On saturday, i finally did it.. I had signed and sent the contract to EDB. I am going to the states for 18 months!!! I should be really excited about it but actually i am just feeling kinda ok about it. Just going through the motions i guess.. Will be going for medical checkups and visa aplication.
I dont get Lum at all. He is not talking to me on msn or smsing me.. i know he shouldnt be and will be better this way but somehow its like as if i were the one who did something wrong and i hate that we are this way now. I stop myself from asking him 'how are u' cuz he doesnt want to tok to me right? Hate that we have to become strangers or maybe he is ok with us being strangers. Perhaps he promised the girl he wont be talking to me anymore. Why do i deserve this from him? He didn't ask me much about me going to US and when i told him about my decision, he only said since u have decided there is nothing i can do right? and i asked him back what do u want to do? He replied i dont want to do anything.. if i decided then he wish me all the best. He had actually asked me on msn one day when will i be leaving.. but soon after he typed tt in, he said never mind but i told him anyways. Why do we have to be like this? It feels so .... difficult....
Over the weekend, i had asked my dad to help me shop for a laptop for me so i can bring overseas and so with the sub card i gave him, my dad went on his fav shopping trip. Shopping for IT stuff. My dad is a nerd for such things so he is the best person to employ for this task. He made his way to PC show and lug back a pretty looking Toshiba protege M600 laptop for me. Bumt a hole in my bank account lo... actually not as expansive as ai thought lah. It cost me about $1700 plus. Been trying to get use to using it. It has in build webcam which i intend to use to contact friends and family. Besides that, i will also need to get a new bag pack... hahah.. i only like the shopping for things in this preparation to go overseas.
I had just realised that this is so sad that i will miss out on so much while i am overseas. Miss out on many of my Huimin's, Laikien's and Huijuan's weddings, missing out on Serene and bernard's precious first born. I will be missing two CNY and two Xmas. I only get a free ticket to come home and i haven deicided when will i use that. Tickets from US to back home wont be cheap either.. Sighhh... living on a allowance prob wont allow me to save much either. BUT! I intend to travel around US while i am there.. example going to New York and shop (Sex and the city style!) Hahahhaa.. i wish....Haven told boss about me leaving the company yet cuz i haven worked up the courage to say it to him. More than half his team had just recently left.
Thanks to Huimin for giving me her honest opinion and advices..and also ZY for saying such kind words about me. Hahah..
Current Mood: grateful
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11:21 am
[Link] | The briefing at EDB was quite informative. On the whole i think they are quite generous cuz they had even given us a paid for ticket to go home during the 18 months training. Got allowance for renting a car and also got medical insurance.. very reasonable lo.. what i am not comfortable is that they still cant tell us the contract they might offer to us at the end of the 18 months. The penalty for breaking bond will depend on when u break it. If it is while u are on training then penalty will be the amount tt Edb has paid for you and if its while u serve bond then penalty will depreciate according to how long u have serve the bond for. as for the night shift thing, i voiced out my concern at the briefing and the HR replied by saying that they are looking into making 70% of staff doing day shift and the remainder will do rotating night shifts. If that is true then i think i am ready to sign it lah. but i told HR that i was told at the 18 months training, the senoirs told me there will be a stretch of 6-9 months of night shift. So i emailed them again and they said they will help me check with their US counterpart. Gotto decide by 16th.. AHhhhh...
I just spoke to Lum's good friend and i think i can realise that he really is serious about the girl. After talking to him i think i can get a clearer picture that he wants to really be with her. After this i think i can really move on cuz he prob wont turn back anymore.. Although i still dont understand how he can give up what he already has with me and go for someone he hardly know (afew months). I hope one day he regrets and know he is making a huge mistake! HMPH
Current Mood:  pensive
Current Music: Sandi Thom
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03:08 pm
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Confused
I have got some news to share with you... (In case you are wondering if its good or bad news.. i think you can say its good news) Let me see howi should start it. About 3 weeks ago (10th may), i was flipping through the recruitment papers on Saturday (I have not touched the recruitment for a very long time.. its so happens i decided to look at it that morning) and saw that Lonza was looking for people to send to US on a Training program under EDB. There was nothing else that interest me on that day's paper so i tore that out (not even bothering to cut it out). I left the paper on my table for quite a few days till it was a week after that i opened my laptop and started editing my CV and filled up the form i printed online. As i was filling it up, suddenly i got a call from Tom. He had just returned from Shanghai work trip and he called to ask how i am and we chatted for a while.. mb nearly an hour. He asked wat was i doing and i told him i was actually filling an application form for this program and he asked if i was sure about applying it. Don't do it on impulse. Then i said I just want to try out the market and most probably i wont get it. (Thats what had happened to my other applications to EDB) After another week past, I suddenly recieved a call last friday from the HR at Lonza and asked me down for an interview next tuesday. In between that weekend, i went to batam with my colleagues. I wanted to enjoy myself and forget my heartache. It was really quite fun except once a while i see romantic couples at the resort and it makes me feel all bitter. Then on sunday, when i was in the chalet room, I saw a sms from Tom and a missed call. He had message me to say 'Just to let you know, I just saw ur uncle at queensway and i am with cynthia. Hope it doesnt affect you too much.' I know this is really not fresh news but when i saw that message my heart was pumping so hard and then i started crying again. (not in tears but sobbing AGAIN) I was up all night wondering why do i find it so hard to let go a guy who is treating me this way. Who turn his back so quickly to me. I dont know the answer to my own question... When i came back to singapore on monday evening, i told myself i gotto focus on the interview the next day but i din even prepare much at all. I wasnt in the mood and ended up just chatting with my friends online. So on tuesday afternoon, i went to Lonza for the interview. (Saw anngie there! She went throught the same program and she was from the first batch. This one i applied for will be the third) I was chosen for the manufacture department cuz mb i have some experince with cell culture work. The guy who interviewed me was this friendly nice angmoh and we chatted quiet casually during the interview. I was told i will know if i am selected by this friday. Today is Thursday, and i got a call from HR while i was on my way to lunch. I was told that i have been selected for the training program and there will be a briefing tomorrow at 3pm and i will get to meet the other people i will be travelling with if i choose to except the offer. All this had happened in a span of a week. Its happening so fast that i am abit lost. When i first applied it, i wasnt expecting myself to get an interview. When i went to the interview i was telling myself i'll just go interview first and see how it goes. Then now i am offered the position, i have to really think it through. I know its a rare oppportunity and i should grab it. Honestly, when i applied for it it was partly cuz i wanted to get away from Tom and Cynthia. I really cant imagine how i will feel if one day i run into them on the streets. So far, i've got my relatives and a friend who ran into him. I know i should learn to be strong and hold my head high and i shouldnt be the one who is afraid to see them but i cannot take the heartbreak with my own eyes. I thought that i may find it easier to heal if i can be away from Singapore and start on something different in a different country. Friends have told me to accept the offer and go only becuz i wanted to go and not to run away from my problem. I do partly wanna try at a slightly different industry while i am still young and this is a good opportunity. But what i am afraid is that i am going at a wrong time or what if i am making a mistake. This training will be in US for 18 months. If i ever do decide to accept it, i will leave by end of Sept and only be back in March 2010. I met up with Tom's aunt for dinner on tues after the interview and told her bout it. I asked for her opinion and she said my brain is acting faster than my heart. My heart has yet to heal but my brain as already act on it. I asked if i am doing something wrong and she replied no. She thinks that its very likely Tom adn Cynthia will not work out and when that happens and tom suddenly gives me a call, she is only afraid that i will come back half way of the training. Well, if i do decide to leave i shouldnt let that happen lah. Its always so nice to chat with tom's aunt. She gives me a different insight to my current situation and gives me advice as a woman who has seen countless times when such things happens. She was so sweet to tell me that she remembers the first time she met me and it was like only yesterday. When i went to Tom's grandma's place (Tom is superclose to his grandma when she was still alive) to have lunch and she saw this plump girl with two pigtails leaning on the bicycle outside the house. She then said when Tom and i broke up its not just me feeling sad about it but she and the rest of the family feels it too cuz they already accepted me as part of the family. Back to the job. I am still considering if i should accept it. Part of me is quite keen to start afresh at a new country but part of me is afraid what if i ends up feeling even more miserable than i am here cuz i wont have my friends and family there...
Current Mood:  distressed
Current Music: Colbie Calliat Realize
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05:13 pm
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Update!
Have been back from Brisb for nearly two weeks already and I wasn't really looking forward to come back to work. Shan't blog about that. Hahah..
Brisb was quite alright but if you ask me if which do i prefer, Brisb or Melb. I would say Melb! Hahah.. Actually, its not my first time to Brisb. Been there once when i was in sec errrm 2 or 3? Went wif my family at that time and been to the three worlds. Dream world, Movie World and Sea World so this time round i saved money not going to these places. Where Lum stays is nowhere near these attractions too. In fact, going to Surfer's Paradise took us 1 1/2 hr of journey on public transport. Since it is Summer at this time of the year, I did not get the feeling of on holiday if u know wat i mean. Only at the surfers paradise do i feel that Hey! i am not in SIngapore! The sea is bluE! Hahaha.. Other times when i was in Brisb, we spend out time going to town, chinatown and 'Treasury' (Casino). At times, i was really bored to tears cuz Lum was at the Casino for hours and its really boring to watch him play for so long and at night, he'll be playing online games with his housemates which then i will read books (purposely bought them there to occupy time) or just go to bed. Overall, it was still time away from singapore and away from work so slacking around wif Lum was still good.
My mum started to work as a assistant of those sch bus drivers this week. U know those that will help the kids get on n off the bus or remembered those days the auntie will scream 'Eh! Boy! Bu yao pao lai pao qu! Zhuo Xie Lai!' Wah! Totally suit my mum! Hahaha.. my bro agrees too but our my mum say we are very bad. Hahahah .. she works half day from morning and she shuttles the kindergarden kids. She loves children and to hear her talk about the children is quite entertaining. They will Auntie! her here and Auntie! her there. Auntie! so n so is doing it again! U know things like such. Very cute..
I am currently looking for a new job so if any of u girls know of somewhere thats research can let me know yar?! Heheh! O! n also, my sister is looking for work too. She is going to stop working wif effect this friday. Sigh! I'm so jealous! but then again i'll be worried not being able to find a job. HAhahah.. I have been to NNI (National Neurology Institute) for interview n even went for the sec round but I did not get it lah. Anyway also good not to take that even if she offers. I get a bad feeling about working for the lady. Next week, i am going for another interview at NUS. I still do not know when I will end my work here cuz haven spoken to the boss about the next renewal which i heard is only extra few months but offically my current contract ends this month lah! I just kinda dread gng to work these two weeks. There is just this very negative air oozing out of my sup. SIghhh... Blog laters!
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12:15 pm
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Lunch time blog
At work right now but have some free time now to blog alittle. Earlier on, i had to donate 10ml of my blood to my colleague for some control experiment. Wah lau! Why me!! hahaha.. ok la 10ml if not alot la.
Thanx leh serene for the info. Lum's parents are actually interested to know. Not me la! Hahaha.. I think they may like to try buying a unit there.
Yeah! I have bought the tics to go Brisbane wif Lum liao. Very heartache leh cuz the ticket is so expensive! I am going to eat all n spend all on Lum! Hahahaha.. Just told my mum the date that I am going to brisbane and she was like:'Advice u not to go and yet you still want to go la?' then my reply is, 'YEs!'. She then lectured me to not do anything silly if not she will 'Da Shi Wo!' Hehehe i am so looking forward to 16th feb and will take a 6 days off from work. Yup! 6 days!! plus weekends its totally of 10 days..
Gotto go for my lunch now.. Blog later!
Current Mood: chipper
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09:30 pm
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Back to Work!!
After a week's worth of leave I should feel rejuvinated and energised but I am not. Why? Cuz I was having trouble sleeping last night. It is such a phenomena that I sleep soundly throughout my off days and just the day before I start to work I had problem sleeping!
Reason why I took leave last week is because TeeLum is back in Singapore! Actually he has been back since 25th July morning. I woke up real early on 25th, like 5.20am! I had been thinking for days if I should tell my mum that I will leave the house early that day cuz in case she hears me leaving the house I wouldn't know how to tell her plus there was a family lunch on the very day. SO! In the end, I told her I was going back to the lab!! To my relief, she believed me. Maybe because I had been very busy at work and its been true that i worked till late hours. My dad din think it was safe for me to go out so early to take a cab so he companied me downstairs and i felt guilty...
Lum arrived at 6am on SQ 1st flight. I waited eagerly and finally saw him at the luggage collection. Gave him a grin and waved. AFter he cleared the luggage, We went back to his home by MRT. He had gained abit of weight and his hair is so long! I begged him to have a haircut soon! (So did his parents)
We've spent the week shopping, watching vcds at his place and swimming. Bought some clothes and a pair of shoes. It feels really good to shop on a weekday afternoon. No qeues at the fitting room and no need to squeeze with the crowd. Just last friday, we went shopping at Marina Square to see how it looks like since its newly renovated. I don't recall Marina Square being so big! Anyhow, as we were exploring the place, we passed by a row of bridal shops and was stopped by this uncle. He wanted to show us 'Metal plate portraits' and asked if we can go in and have a look. Lum who din want to appear rude felt obliged to go in so we did. While we sat down to wait, the uncle was replaced by a auntie who started to sell us some 'wedding investment plan'. First of all, she super poh Lum and I. Saying we have such 'fu qi xiang' then said Lum has a 'lao shi lian'. I couldn't control myself and look at him and laughed. Then he asked her what if he doesn't want to marry me after 10 years? She then replied' SInce u are so straight forward i shall be the same with u. It transferrable!' Next she looked at me and said why is your boyfriend this way one?! Hahahah..
The plan was to pay a 10% deposit which is $300 to have a package fixed at ~$3800 valid for 10 years. The package has alot of things, from make over, a Merc car rented to u, a whole wedding album to custom made gowns from Europe. SHe was so good at going on and on saying things like its such a good plan and their shop is very established. We sat there like tt for maybe 1 hour and still in the end we told her no. After we said no to her, her face change arleady loh! Okay lah, not to the extend of scolding or what lah but its hard work to convince people to put deposits on the spot somemore. I felt its some kind of scam loh. Serene! Do you have such experiences? Is this reliable? THen again, I think did benefit and learn quite abit about wedding planning out of the Taiwanese 'Da-jie'(she say so herself!)
Okay! Watch Desp Housewives Time!!
Current Mood: relaxed
Current Music: Lush 99.5
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06:57 am
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Stress from family
The last 2 weeks at home had been stressful and it started with me. I had been out late, past curfew time, on two consecutive days. On one thursday, i was home i think at around 11pm cuz i had went to my usual dance class with my friend then after class we had dinner together and chit chatted till I had completely forgotten about the time. the following day, I went out with some Uni friends to watch Madagascar and it was a 9.10pm show. After work, we met up to have dinner at PS Cafe Cartel and then headed for the cinema. I enjoyed the show and was fun to watch it with a group of friends. We kinda just took our time to walk out of PS and also becuz one of our friends Su was going back to Aust to do her PhD and we wouldn't meet up like that very often. I noticed it was 11pm already and i quickly called my mum to tell her i was on my way and on the phone she sounded pissed already and said I always 'Xian zhan hou zho'. Su offered to drive me home and by the time i was home it was 11.40pm. I could smell her burnt face at the door loh! I think i made her even madder by talking back at her saying that I was home mon, tue, wed and she dun seem to remember! Plus i dun stay out this late often at all! She said i treated this home like a hotel.
Next morning i promised to meet Su for a quick shopping in town to grab afew last min things before she flies off. So in the morning as i prepared to leave the house i hear her complaining in her angry tone to my dad about me. I felt very angry myself cuz it really is no big deal and got fed up with her for treating me this way. I went to her and said to her in a calm manner that this is a small thing and tried to explain to her but she started shouting as if i committed a Huge SIN! Shouting about it all doesnt matter now cuz i have already done it! I couldn;t take her screaming and left house in a fury, banging the door as i went out. It was alittle embarrassing as i tried to control my emotions as i go out but not very well. I did meet up my friend and we hanged out for the afternoon and i had arranged to meet my sister and her bf to pick up my colleague's jack russell to keep at our home for a few days. His name was 'Junoir'. Junoir such a handsome and docile dog! He brought alot of relief to me and lighten up my day alot. Junoir is a mostly white fur doggy with brown ears and a perfectly round brown patch on his back. His so obedient and loving, my sis and i can just play with him the whole day. We manage to keep him for only 6 days. I tried to persuade my dad to let us keep him but despite the fact that i know my parents like him they still refuse.
The same night and also the next day, my mum continues her shoutings. This time at my sister. She had been home everyday taking care of the dog and plus she had graduated recently. Ask her to clean up the room, ask her to go out and buy lunch, scold her for this and that. I think it drove her insane and when she cou;dn't take it anymore she quarrelled with my mum too. She broke down and told me she cannot tolerate this anymore and wants to move out, asking me if i want to go with her. I know she has wanted to do this for some time now but i know she is serious this time. I can't go with her of course. I have no money to afford to rent on top of the money i give my parents! I understood her reasons for doing this but I really hate to see that as a solution. Things will turn very ugly once it becomes true. I was so stressed up by this cuz i dunno how to persuade my sister out of it but part of me wanted her to be happy. SHe is very determined. She has been looking on the internet everynight finding out how much it is to rent and places to rent. The family was just quiet for a whole 1-2 weeks. The inital plans to go to Bintan in June was even cancelled cuz i guess no one is in the mood to go. I just felt very heavy in my chest and so helpless and fustrated.
Then all of a sudden, earlier this week my parents started talking to us again. I doubt things are the same anymore and we are most likely to face this same scenario again. My sister is still searching for a place to rent so I really dunno how it will all play out eventually.
Current Mood: disappointed
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07:00 pm
[Link] | Last Saturday, I went for a quick swim in the morning at my uncle's condo place before i quickly walk home and got change to go for my dance class. I have been attending some dance classes at a dance studio at Raffles recommended by my fren. I have been attending it for the last 2 months but I am no where near the flexible and natural teenagers who also attends the same class. Though i can't catch up i gotto say its fun. I was suppose to meet my fren there at the studio and we would go shopping after that but as usual Su my fren was late and she calls me to says she is not coming for the class. Since i have the whole day with nothing to do I went to SIngapore Expo for the book fair my colleague has informed me that morning. So, I took the train from Raffles and went to Expo myself for the book fair. There were quite a number of ppl at the book fair and So many books to choose from! I took a basket like everyone else did and started dumping in books i might like to read. I went through piles and stacks of books (they are not really placed in any order so u gotto dig ur way through)and took quite afew. Spent around an hour and half there and then went to qeue to pay and waited for around 20mins for my turn. I went away pretty satisfied with my purchase of 5 books for $24. Yeah! After that i met my family for dinner at Prima Deli and then went home.
On Sunday, we had late breakfast / lunch after my dad da bao from Jurong east. Afterwards in the afternoon i was preparing to go out to meet my colleagues to rollerblade at east coast when it started to get really cloudy and we called it off. In the end, I stayed home and played majong with my family.
On monday, went out wif family for breakfast in town and then I went back home first, changed my clothes and went to swim at Tom's place (he left me his acess card). Was then suppose to meet my colleagues to try to rollerblade but was called off again so i went home after my swim and rot at home loh. I stayed at home and then was nagged by my mum and when i dun my mum complains I should not Got time no time also go out. HAI!@!! SO difficult!!!!
Back to work on tuesday and I had booked tickets for TeeLUm and his housemate for their return flight from SINgapore to Brisb in July. THey are both coming back for June Hols on 25th June. I am glad that he was able to come back but felt quite bad that his parents having to pay another ticket. I was also told his parents are going to SOuth Africa tomorrow so chatted with Lum's mum briefly on the phone and she told me she will pay for the tickets today cuz the agent had informed me that the airport tax would go up very soon from $199 to $220.
My sister and I have been planning to adopt a dog soon and very lucky for me my colleague who has two russells offered to 'lend' me one to try for a week at home. At first, i had my doubts my mum will say yes but surprisely i must have caught her in one of her rare good moods she replied 'anything'. I took it as yes of course and went ahead to make arrangements. Was suppose to be this weekend and told her long ago but yesterday she told me plainly Cannot bring back this week cuz my bro is going to have exams! She did on purpose i tell you! It was plot to deter us and give us problem!! My sis was very upset cuz she made plans around it so she can be at home to see to the dog (she graduated liao). I told her then that we just have to try later in the month loh I am not giving up and fall for her trap! Hah!
OK gotto go have my dinner now.. My mum is in her crazy self again after the holiday ended. Don't even know what set her off!!! My sister is going to leave me alone in the house while she goes to play tennis! Sobz..
Current Mood: gloomy
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11:31 pm
[Link] | Its april now and I was so looking forward to see Lum in June in Brisbane. But.... Hai.. i can forget about that happening now. I have asked my mum on last sunday and she just said NO. Those words i often hear from her. I told her you must give me a reason and not just say no and she simply replied dun talk about it and spoil the whole morning's breakfast. Utterly disappointed, I vented my disappointment and fustration on house hold chores and then went for a swim. I then called Lum to tell him and he wasn't happy of course but slowly he accepted it and understood. I am thankful that he is if not I feel bad enough already!! He then cheered me up by saying its ok he will try to come back in June. I am thrilled if he can but if he can't I also can't be mad at him. Anyways, after he discussed this over with his mum he probably can but now it is up to the availabilty of tickets.
Tried asking my mum again today again and dunno how i get that kind of calmness to talk to her. She explain that being girls we have to put ourselves in that higher level! Cannot just fly over to see him cuz he is there! Why can't he come over? You came back for June holidays! he can too besides the aust currency is too high now! I told her its the best time to go cuz i dun have to worry bout paying a single cent of accomodation and if i go when my fren is back i have to pay for that kind of extra stuff! (told her i was going to stay with another fren whos at UQ too) Bottom line, she won't agree to let me go. She suggest that my sis and I can go for a trip with our frens but she will not agree to letting us go with out bfs. Give Up!
Been getting serious insomnia for a month now and it always start on the sunday night and only to thurs does it get back to normal sleeping hours. It gets so bad that i can't sleep the whole night and i feel terrible on monday that i take half day to rest and making up on saturday. (So sorry to you girls esp serene that i forgot to reply ur message on saturday lunch. Was working that day) Took 'Valerian Root' and 'Melatonin' not sleeping pills but some kind of supplement and din work anymore. I was really getting fustrated and stress. I know its not due to work cuz its not stressful but more of a physcological thingy that the more i can't sleep on time the more i can;t get to sleep!! Now i can sleep cuz been taking flu tablet that has drowsiness effect and so is the whole family that has become sick. Started from my brother who came back with flu then next my mum whos been taking care of him caught the germ. The next day i started having a bad soar throat and my sister and dad had the same syptoms and as soon as a i know it, I am coughing and blowing my nose now. I gotto see the staff clinic tml to claim some medication cuz the family is eating the same pills and are running out!
Waiting for tom to call my hp. He said he got homework to do loh. Its nice that we can still talk to each other everyday mostly throught the internet line. Gotten used to not seeing him and having him physically here but still miss him alot.
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04:49 pm
[Link] | On Friday, I had taken half day off from work to colour my hair as well as checking in for the hotel/hostel at Mt Emily. Lum woke up earlier that day to rent some vcds so we could watch it in the room. He had to also bring his laptop along. So i knocked off at 12.30pm and met LUm in orchard to have lunch and went for colouring of my hair at 2pm. I had done a brown base colour and a light brown streak on the fringe and that cost me $90. Lum said its better the last time i colour that shocking expire ahlian look. i also bought a hair shampoo for coloured hair $15 and hair serum from TGI $28. We were there for maybe around 2 hours and after that we went to buy some snacks and drinks for the stay.
It took us some time to figure out how should we get there but Lum called his friend who stays around that area and so we took bus 111 and after we alighted we had to walk around 15 minutes and up a slope. On our way there i thought the place look quite 'Wu-lu' but still i was excited to see the place. When we arrive, we checked in and I was not disappointed at all. It was really mordern, clean and design of the place was quite 'chic'. The room has a TV (but does not have channel 5 or 8), bathroom has a bath tub and a comfy double bed. We explore the place abit at night after finishing one vcd and went to the top floor called the 'Look Out' to have a look and they have this open concept with wooden tables and chairs, place is lightly deemed where ppl just hangout drink beers and chat. As it was on a higher ground, there is 'some' view you can look at. Was quite lovely. We then head out to have supper as Lum said there is the famous Rochor Dao Hui. We walked out and discover a shorter path that leads us out. Lum had chicken rice and we bought Roti prata and dao hui back to eat. The roti prata is just delicious but i was eating it alone cuz Lum fell asleep!! After eating, i just lounge on the bed and read a book till it was my turn to fall asleep. Hehehe.. The next morning we had our breakfast that was included in the stay and we had it at the 1st level called the 'pig-out'. Breakfast was satisfactory and after we checked out at 10am, we just hangout in the cafe got a while longer before we left and headed home.
Overall, I really enjoyed my stay there. I thought it was quite a nice place with cozy atmosphere though the down side is that it is quite troublesome to get there. Lum keeps saying its and ok place that there is much better atmosphere places but of course i would have to pay more. Oh.. but if any of you girls are interested i paid $76 per night stay for a double bed room. Check it out at its website (but i dun have the add) try typing in Hangout@Mt Emily and you'll find it. Its situated at 10A Upper Wilkie Rd.
Ok.. end here in the mean time.. Gotto go back to work!! =P
Current Mood: satisfied
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11:04 pm
[Link] | Hello girls!! I went for a trim at far east plaza.. It was a salon that Lum had been going the past two haricuts and he finds the hairdresser good so i went to give it a try. Anyway was just a trim and was for $28. THe lady told me my faded blonde hair colour makes me look very 'chiao chui' recommend me to do a sightly darker hair colour. I probably go down again this friday to colour lah. This friday i'll be taking a half day leave cuz i had booked a hotel room or more like a hostel at this place call Hangout @ Mt EMily. I've been wanting to get a nice place for lum and i to spend quality time together as he will be going away in exactly a month's time. Its a pretty cheap place for me to afford ($70 per nite) and through friends recommendation i found out about the place. THey read it on 8 days and said it has hostel price rates and hotel class... Hmmm i wonder... SHall give a review to you girls after this friday. Earlier on went for a swim at Lum's place and his mum made us lunch.
I trimmed my eyebrows at Shu Umera at the counter booth at CK tang on thursday and i find it quite good. Well from my boring no arc eyebrows the girl managed to trim it to a shape! I also then bought their eye brow pencil that is shaven to a flat angle that makes it real easy for me to use! Quite happy with the buy. Huimin, i have yet to learn make up from you leh. Hai i shall find a time ok?
This morning i was suppose to meet a poly friend of mine for breakfast. SHe came back for her holiday break in Queensland. We used to have breakfast there before we go to sch for lessons sometimes and she had missed the cheap breakfast so we were going to do that since we have not meet for some time. This morning as i woke up at 8.30am she sms me to tell me she had something on the last minute and if we could cancel the breakfast. I mean what else can i say but to tell her ok. This isn;t her first time doing this and i am just really pissed. I find it hard to believe she always has so many times of last minutes. She did not even bother to explain what came up. ANyways i will never ask this friend out anymore... So unrealiable..
On friday, Lum and I went to watch 'Meet The Fockers' at Great world and to my surprise i really enjoyed it. I get the feeling this was a sleezy, slap stick kind of movie but it was actually quite hilarious and cute!! I really love the baby L.J i think his name was. FOr those of you girls who watched i like everytime the baby says 'Ass------Hole!!!' Okey... pen off now.. sis gotto use laptop for work.. I'm really enjoying this new speakers my sis and I bought. Its from Altec Lansing Makes and it makes all the music i have sound Sooo much better....
Current Mood: relaxed
Current Music: Remy Shand's Eye's Mind
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05:12 pm
[Link] | Hi everyone...
Its been ages since i last put an entry.. Hehehe.. Had just quickly read through the entries cuz i am at work! Hahah.. These past few days had been really nice cuz my parents and my brother are away in Shanghai for 10 days since last sunday. I have been spending it everyday with Lum so far lah. We basically spend the time at his place or mine to have dinner.. It saves us so much money and we can spend time together still. Best part is i'm glad we stay near one and another which allows me to go home after work to wash up 1st before going over and its also ok to stay till late and not worry about transport. We watch TV and just slouch on the sofa.. I prefer to go to his place cuz his house has HBO and i can watch my fav show 'Sex and The City' Last season some more. Hahhaa.. (sadly it won't be for long). I have also taken the day off tomorrow and on monday. Suling, my ex housemate has asked me to go clubbing with her on this Saturday at double O and i have agreed to that.. Wohhh!!! (no government in hokkien) All u ppl must be like surprised... Not my 1st time liao.. went before to China Black and had kept it from my mum by telling her i was going to stay over at Suling's place cuz we wanted to catch up and stuff.. (idea was from Suling too!)
2004 is almost coming to an end and starting to feel so slackerish after i told myslef i had worked hard in Nov. Haaha excuses, excuses. Bonus is coming too and very thankful for that! My dad has reminded me to buy an insurance soon and has spoke to his agent again and came up with a good bargain. Initially i told him i wanted to wait some more and still dun feel so comfortable with my pay to buy a policy. Remembering i will have my bonus soon, he suggested i use that to pay for the year's fee. After much consideration, i think i will buy it loh..
Later going to meet Zul my poly friend for dinner and some catch up and since i have the next day free, i shall ask Lum whether he wants to borrow a bunch of DVDs to have a mobie marathon at my place. yeah!!!
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09:06 pm
[Link] | Rafi's mum passed away 2 weeks ago and so I had been contacting Rafi these days to see how he is doing. His mother had been in and out of hospital for a long time since he came back from Aust last year and though she was admitted in hospital for something about enclosed veins but in the end it was pneumonia that killed her. Usually old people contract pneumonia and esp when the body is weak so i think its bcuz his mother was weak and has been in the hospital for a long time where there are germs and bacteria thats what happened i guess. He seems to be ok but he misses his mother still. I felt really sad for him and since he does not have much close friends i was worried about him. Luckily, he was given a job just last week so he doesn;t have too much time on his hands. As he was busy taking care of him mum he din have the chance to really look for a job. I haven spoken to him for a very very long time and conincdently when i happen to contact him taht very evening he told me he lost his mother. He din know about Lum and I patched up too and I had some difficulty trying to tell him but in the end i still manage to.
Experiment not running well these days. Stayed up to 7pm to work but only to found out the next day it cannot be continued becuz something did ot turn out well. Discussed with supervisor but still found it very puzzling. I guess it might have something to do with my technique. Hai... very sian...
Lum has went back to camp on sunday evening and yesterday when i met him on his book out night he told me he could not get use to sleeping in camp.. Heheheh i teased him for being to pampered at home. He misses his bolster and air-conditioned room. Anyways he only have got another 2 months then ORD liao mah so thats very consoling for him loh.
Last friday, Lum, my colleague Ed and I went to the Comex fair at suntec and it was soooo crowded loh. Lum bought a acer laptop for $3299. It was a wide screen one and he had been eyeing it for a few months now though i tried to talk him out of it cuz i felt it was too bulky and impractical loh. I myslef bought a 256MB thumbdrive for only $55. Its not very slick and high tech looking but it was the best bargain i can find. Huimin i sms u to get Jeff's number so Lum can ask him for advice and the model of laptop to buy but since u did not respond perhaps u did not receieve the message? Lum got a reply from his application from Uni Melb but they did not offer any exemptions and which means he will have to do full 4 year course and he was damn pissed off about it. So now he applied for Uni Queensland and New South Wales and see whats the options.
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Mark Owen Child
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11:04 pm
[Link] | Came back from work today and microwave pizza was for dinner. My sister told me our mother is getting lazier to cook these days. I had two of the pizzas cuz no one else wanted to finish it. Felt quite disgusted now so i am sipping Camomile tea. Before that , work was busier than usual yet at the same time i am bored. Sometimes i don;t feel like i fit in the lab. I think its becuz everyone else in the lab is in their 30s and above while i am the youngest of all. I somehow feel that i can't click well with them but i am still grateful they are nice to me.
And after work i felt i needed to unwind abit so I met up with Lum at Great world for abit of drink and chat. We talked about what my sister and i talk about my mum. My sister asked me don't i feel sian that i have to give my mother $1000 every month and yet still be controlled by her so much? Well of course i do. I was very upset when my mother told me that. Sigh.. but i've got over it. Then my sister said she will only give her $500 then i told her she is not going to let u. SHe which then later said we become the ones to give her the allowance like how she gave allowance to us when we are schooling. SHe gave us very minimal and we take it as it is. I thought she made alot of sense in it.
I feel that my mother these days have just accepted that i am with Lum but still is not going to let me off the hook. I don't want to back down anymore either which i usually did. She will hsve to try and understand my feelings. I don't think its wrong for me to do this but yet sometimes i still feel guilty. ese days, when i tell her that i am going out she will reply; you don't need to tell me.
Ok going to sleep soon.. To serene, Huimin, Fangya (if u are reading this) sorry i can't attend the graduation ceremony but congratulations to you all !! will be seeing photos of u girls in the gown and square hat!!!! Hai.. i haven worn mine before..
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03:54 pm
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Mother and I saga
I haven really spoken with my mother for a week now and still is becuase of Lum. I kinda give up talking to her about it and she and i just never really spoke to one another then i think while my sister tried explaining to her that she cannot judge a book by its cover she got slammed by mother who told her 'so you like him now lah!' My sister got pissed with my mother for saying things like these so then now my sister is not talking to her as well. The mood in the house is cold and un homely. I only feel normal if my sister is home and the only part of the house that i feel comfortable in is my room. My sister asked me if i'll be ok if she moves back into hostel. I think she can;t stand staying at home too. Sigh..
I'm at Lum's house now and we'll be going to Simlim to take a look at PDAs. He wants to get one and said will be useful for him to bring abroad for his studies. Lum has gotten both letters from NTU n NUS and both had rejected him. SO nowadays, I help him out with looking at Unis and application forms. I was quite disappointed he couldn;t get to stay here in SIngapore to do his degree but then also in a way glad and excited for him that he is going to see the world... gotto run.. chao!!!
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